So, for the past few  weeks I have been wanting to post, but I couldn't.  I could not post  without sharing the AMAZING news I found out 3 weeks ago, so I waited.   Here is what happened;
So, without going into too much detail and grossing you all out, one day  I woke up and realized "Um...I might be pregnant!".  So, I waited a few  days and then bought a test.  Instantly it turned positive.  And when I  saw that positive sign, I just started giggling.  Let me back up a  minute here. 
Ever since I was  younger I have always wanted 2 boys and then 1 girl.  I am the oldest  in my family and always dreamed of having older brothers.  You all know I  have been blessed by 2 amazing little boys.  Gah, they are the  bestest.  They are sweet, kind, loving, funny, and a complete joy to  those around them.  I had preeclampsia with my 2nd son and was put on  hospital bedrest at 31 weeks.  It was an incredibly emotional and scary  time for my little family, but thankfully Owen was born healthy at 34  weeks.  He was just teeny tiny, as in 4 lbs tiny.  My husband and I  decided that we were happy with our boys and probably shouldn't push  having another since I have a higher chance of getting preeclampsia  again.  However, in the back of my mind the desire to have one more  child has been nagging at me.  Fast forward 4 years....
Here I sit, 7.5  weeks pregnant, feeling incredibly blessed and completely freaked out.   For multiple reasons.  1) I am terrified of getting sick again and  having a preemie.  2) I feel like we are starting over.  Aidan will be  almost 7 and Owen almost 5 when this baby is born.  However, I realize  they will be fantastic little helpers!  3) as with most additions to a  family I stress about where we will find the room for this baby, how we  will afford this baby, etc.  And lastly, I worry about becoming obsessed  with my weight and diving back into overeating/purging.  After all, the  past times I've gone through that was after my 2 previous  pregnancies.  
Yesterday  I had the honor of actually getting to see my little raspberry sized  baby via ultrasound.  It was just a quick one to make sure there was  only 1 baby (there is) and to make sure the heart was beating.   Unfortunately I was unable to get any pics of the baby right now.  The  ultrasound made me cry.  Seeing this amazing gift God created growing  inside me was just incredible.  When I saw the little heart just a  beating away I immediately thanked God.  What a miracle! 
We are so  excited and thankful!  Only time will tell what is going to happen and  when this baby will actually be born, but I know with your support I can  get through this.  I will continue to do my best to blog on here and keep you all updated.  Thank you so much for your support!
 
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