Well, I made it. 1 year with no purging. I did not think I would be able to go that long. This is not to say that I have no struggled in the past year because I have. Over eating is still a tough thing for me not to do. I am an emotional eater and darnit if I'm not very emotional. However, with lots of prayers, encouragement, support, love and guidance I have made it 1 year. I can hardly believe it. I have been tempted in the past year to purge, but always thought of how I would feel after and I did not want to disappoint all of you who have been encouraging me this whole way. I know I'm not out of the clear, but I feel like I am getting there. And it's a wonderful place to be. Recently while walking I heard this song, yes I realize it's probably geared towards teenagers, but the words struck home HARD. What an amazing song, what a great message and why can't we just all be our own 'Beautiful Me'?
I am reaching a point in my life where I am ready to accept myself for who I am. I was created by
God for a reason and who am I to tell him that he did not do a good enough job? Sure I have my imperfections (inside and out) but who doesn't? I need to embrace those and realize that those imperfections help to make me...well ME. I could list everything I wish I could change about myself but what good does that do? I can't change how I look ( I mean really), and honestly I don't want to. The things I CAN change are on the inside and that is what I am working on. So, I will continue to do so. I want to thank you all so much for all of your support, honesty, love, acceptance and no judgement. You all mean so much to me and I am so blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life who care about me. I'm about to turn 30 here in a couple weeks. Honestly I'm a bit scared of it, but then part of me is really excited. I have heard that turning 30 brings along feelings of self acceptance and a boost in self esteem. I am hoping that is true for me. I am SO ready for that.
Here's to another year!